I am so very sad for all who are being denied their equal civil rights to marry. I understand the outrage completely and hope every red hot atom of it is channeled into effective, ongoing action.
I understand the pain and the tears, and hope each one of them is also channeled into effective, ongoing action. It shouldn't be this way, but it always has been: equal rights for "others" are never granted: they need to be seized.
I was near death from end stage addiction before I made the astounding discovery that I was a lesbian, at age 41. Thanks to where and how I was raised, (in the same kind of hate filled religion behind most of today's homophobia,) until then, I only knew I was a hopelessly defective sinner, so why not just drink myself to death and be done with it?